My life hehe!

i would quite like a hug. i just feel so crap right now.... i feel like im being used and it hurts alot....... i feel like i dont fit in no matter where i go. mum n dad r jst moaning about everything which really doesnt help...... AND theres this guy enough said lol.

well if anyone can be arsed coming through a hug would be nice, if not ill jst go to bed.

bed it is then xxx

well ive not updated in agggggeeees! ive bn on holiday it was pretty gd but my family drove me mad lol but it was nice and sunny so that was pretty gd! apart from that jst bn workin, started driving lessons and chilling out.... the summer hols are great :D!

but yeah im liking sum1 else now and im not sure what to do cos i dunno how he feels or anything like that.... wish i did lol hmmmmmmmmm

but anyways thats bout it in my life right now so bye lol xxx

Well an update....hmmm bn busy working n stuff exams are all over now thank god :D sunday went 2 the livery after wor, saw trondheim n got a lil bit drunk was pretty good, wednesay went 2 the shows that was fun 2 but lauren hurt her neck on that stupid thingy cc made us go on :(

but yeah 2day never really did very much.... been feelin pretty shitty recently, jst now theres alot of stuff jst gettin 2 me n it kinda hurts.... i jst feel like im such an arse n always fall for ppl that r waayyyyy out of my leauge :( also i feel alone but like i cant talk 2 any1 cos they all have their own problems 2 deal wiv that r prob much worse than mine yet im the 1 that complains....... pretty pathetic i think

ach well work 2moro... am off 2 bed now nite xxxx

Fill it in so i dont look as if i have no friends plz

1. Do we know each other outside of myspace/Live Journal?


2. What song reminds you of me?


3. Would you have my back in a fight?


4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?


5. What is your favorite memory of us?


6. Have we ever been drunk/stoned together?


7. Would you give me a kidney?


8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:


9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?


10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?


11. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?


12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?


13. Do you think I'm a good person?


14. Would you drive across country with me?


15. Do you think I'm attractive?


16. Are there ever times when you want to call me but don't?


17. If you could change anything about me, would you? what would it be?


18. What is the best advice you can give me?


19.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?


20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Well hello!! was at the cinema last nite...saw ice age 2...its gd but a lil confusing cos ive not seen ige age lol...me n lauren renamed the ppl in the film with the ppl we were with....cassie n cc were the mammoths n alice n innes were the possums (sp?) it was well fun like. then we went 2 mcdonalds n i got a mcflurry even tho it was bloody freezing arse that i am...then we got the bus cc told us it went through boghall...me n lauren said it didnt...we were right of course but no1 listened 2 us :( we had 2 walk bak from tescos at half ten at nite n it was frrrrreeeeeeezzzzzzzziiingg grrrr!! but hey.....2day ive jst bn revisin....load of shite really...anyways am off guten tag xxxxx

Have you ever

Climbed a tree: Yeah...then fell bak down again :(
Danced in the rain: Yep
Made out with best friend: Nah
Ate something really horrible-looking: Yep...a mushroom *shudders*
Picked your nose and ate it: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW no
Been trash-canned: YA whit
Fallen in love with someone of the same sex: Nope
Hugged a tree: No...
Streaked: Haha no
Watched a meteor shower: Nope
Fallen in front of a ton of people: Probably im stupid like that
Been in a play: Yep in orimary 5 i had a "lead role" lmao
Written a really good story: Nah
Ate a bug: Yeah for a dare *shudders*
Been in love with someone way older than you: Yeah lmao
Kissed someone of the same sex: Nein
Stolen something from a friend: Nope
Played an instrument in a preformance: Recorder lol does that count?
Skipped school: Skipped a class lol not a whol day of skl tho
Written someone a nasty letter: Yea
Cried over someone you loved: Havent we all.....
Cried over someone you didn't even know: Emmmm no
Gone swimming in your clothes: Yeah....not a gd idea lol
Taken a class you knew you'd fail: Emmmm maths lol
Accidentally sat in gum on the curb: Dont think so
Kissed a frog: EWwwww no
Been to summer camp: No
Had a best friend: Duh
Wanted to kill someone: Emmm ive said oooo ill kill them but not ever actually wanted 2 do it
Seen a dead person: Nope
Played Ding Dong Ditch: If thats the same as Chappie then aye
Gone skinny dipping: Nope
Pretended to be someone else: Yah lmao 2 teabag
Met a celebrity: yeah
Killed something: Spider
Stayed up all night: Yah
Played Strip Poker: Well we didnt no how 2 play poker... but strip blackjack aye...never again
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture show: Yah
Toilet papered someone's house: Nope
Cried in public: Yeah
Clicked on a pop-up: Yep
Read a really bad book even though it's really bad: Yep
Thought you had a mental problem: Hahaha no
Freaked out because you thought things were changing too fast: Yah
Had a movie marathon: Yah
Been in love: Dont think so........
Worn make-up: Yah
Scratched a chalk board: Nope
Cheated on a school assignment/test: oops
Punched someone: Yeah
Wanted to die: No really
Pondered existence: Yep
Had milk come out of your nose because you were laughing so hard: Eww no
Been indecisive: Yeah
Hated yourself: Yea
Been obsessed with something: Yep
Ran the mile: Ooo yeah lol
Ran with scissors and actually hurt yourself or someone else: No
Listened to a CD straight through without skipping any songs: Yeah
Used a calculator: Yep
Been to Canada: No
Ran away from home: No
Tried to find the words but they didn't come out right: A lot lol
Thought about what it would be like to be the opposite sex: Yeah
Sat in the middle of the street: Yeah
Written a song: Nope
Gotten annoyed because people can’t differentiate among "their" "there" and: Nah
Been bitten by a snake: SNAKES AHHHHHHHHH *HIDES*
Gone on a road trip: Yeah
Wished you could fly: Yeah...thought i cld once
Had a near death experience: Nope
Talked to yourself on AIM: No
Shaved your head: No
Spun until you were immensely dizzy: Yeah
Been ice skating: Yep
Gotten stuck inside an elevator: No
Been paintballing: Nope

Well........ i deleted the last entry it was all over emotional n stuff....so any1 who read it just ignore it...im being an arse again....gettin upset over nothing but hey...... nothin excitin has bn happening...ill let u no when it does thil then ciao (spelling?) xxxxxxxxxx

Well....trondheim didnt win...oeo did which would be gd if podge wasnt such an arse!

yeah im feeling shite right now aint sure why tho...i think its just a build up of loads of different stuff :'( but i dunno it shite meh this sux n i dont even feel like i can talk bout it 2 any1 cos i dunno what 2 or say or why im feeling like this it seems every time every1 else is sad im happy and every time every1 else is happy im sad i feel like im spoiling their happiness :'(.........


well am gonna go now n be emo somewhere else n stop waistin peopls time by talking totally bollocks...

YO! just wanna say thanks sooo much 2 the ppl who said they didnt hate me :D (carrie - ive never really talked 2 u properly but u seem soooooo nice!! n lauren ur 1 of ma best mates eva!!) anyways had such a gd wkend... did our wee walk thingy round arthur seat on firday n me n lauren did it in 50 mins *proudness lol* then we went up 2 princess street then came hame n cassie n lauren stayed at ma house... on saturday we went 2 budgies party n got a lil bit drunk lol but yes i had sehr much fun!!! never did much on sunday lol.... ysterday went 2 the centre was pretty good i thought yah! 2day went 2 skl then fell asleep lol... ROCK PLATFROM 2MORO!!! me n lauren r gonna support trondheim cos we r kl n we think bathgate realllllllllly need 2 win somthing lol but i think cassies supporting OEO... but shes weird lol... anyways am off now xxxx

why the hell am i so bloody stupid? ive really messed up this time i thought id made a mess of my life before...but never this badly...i cant believe i could be sooooo stupid, i dunno how 2 get out of this 1 at all....still at least its made me realise its no wonder ppl hate me.... i hate me 2 :'(........

QUIZ!!!!!

THE WHO's

Who is in the house with you? mum, dad, bro n doggy
Who was the last person to IM you? Lauren
Who are you thinking about now? Ashton Kutcher :P
Who's house did you last go to? um... Lauren's
Who do you sit in front of in your 2nd period class on a monday? No-one i have admin n sit at a comp :P
Who was the last person you told you love them? dunno dude
Who do you wish you were with right now? Emmm all ma mates :D
Who's your favourite relative? Emmm dunno
Who gets on your nerves the most from your school? emm the neds


THE WHERE'S

Where do you go to school? Bathgate Academy joy lol
where do you live? Bathgate
Where is your phone? in the hall
Where are your parents? watchin tv i think
Where do you sleep? My bed!!!!
Where do you shop the most? TESCOS :P
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? im nicht wearin eine shirt :p
Where did you last take a car ride to? bak 2 ma house
Where in your house are you? dining room lol
Where did you get this survey? Lauren!!


THE WHAT'S

What was the last thing you ate? Chewin gum
What was the last thing you drank? orange juice n vodka lol
What colour pants are you wearing? emm they have polka dots on them :p
What kind of mobile phone do you have? Motorola
What is the closest item near you that is blue? ma jeans lol
What do you like about school? when the bell rings at the end of the day
What is your gender preference (guy or girl)? Girls
What are you wearing on your feet? socks with snowmen on them :p
What instant messaging service do you use? MSN!
What is your favorite colour? PURPLE!!!!
What is your screen name? (8)If hearts were unbreakable then i could just tell u where i stand...(8)
What is your most used away message? Don't use one
What is your favorite website? dunno dude
What is your favorite shoe brand? dunno dude
What do you wear more; jeans or skirts? jeans
What is the last movie watched? Signs
What do you currently hear? Aerosmith- Dont wanna miss a thing


THE WHY'S

Why are you taking this survey? I'm bored
Why do you have a xanga? Ya whit
Why does basically half the world have a myspace? cos they r gay
Why did you pick your myspace user name? dont have 1
Why do we have to go to school? cos its the easiest way they can think of torturin ppl for 7 hours a day
Why did you take this particular suvey? IM BORED!!!!!!!
Why are people labeled (like emo, goth, prep etc.)? cos ppl are arseholes n they think that if they talk 2 ppl outside their label thingy then they r not kl


THE WHEN'S

When did everyone become obsessed with myspace? When they discovered they had nothing else 2 do with their sad patheic lives
When did you start school? Balbardie- all the kl ppl went there :P
When did you meet your best friend? Lauren n cassie both a primary skl lol
When is your birthday? June 17th
When did you last go to the mall? yesterday with meine beste freunds
When did you last buy a new pair of pants? yesterday
When did you last burn a candle? agesss ago
When were you last at school? friday
When did you last see your dad? bout half an hour ago
When did you last take a shower? This morning


HAVE YOU EVER!

1. Slept in a different bed? Yup
2. Made out in a movie theatre? Yup
3. Made out in the forest? emmm yeah
4. Thought your cousin was hot? haha ewwww no have u seen my cousins!!
5. Slept naked? nah
6. Taken a shower with the opposite sex? Nope
7. Gone over the speed limit? Don't drive
8. Painted your room? Yeah
9. Drove a car? Nah
10. Danced in front of your mirror? Yeah
11. Gotten a hicky? Yup
12. Stole money from a friend? Nah
13. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yeah
14. Been in a fist fight? Sorta....
15. Snuck out of your house? Yup
16. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yup
17. Been arrested? nah but bn brought home by the police
18. Made out with a stranger? yeah lol
19. Left your house with out telling your parents? Aye
20. Had a crush on your neighbour? yeah but i was 3 lol
21. Ditched school to do something more fun? yeah
22. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yup
23. Seen someone die? nah
24. Been on a plane? aye
25. Kissed a picture? no lol
26. Slept in until 3? yeah
27. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yup

TAP O' THE MORNIN 2 YA!! happry st patricks day lol!! sooo 2day skl was shitty but i passed my personal study in english woooooooooo lol i was sooo happy :D:D!! then me lauren n cassie went 2 livi n i got jeans, a top n a jumper lol woooo there kl sooo i was all happy :D!! then we went 2 laurens n we just had a really gd laugh im soooo glad ive got closer 2 them cos they r both amazin ppl n really great friends :D:D:D i luv them both soooo much....

anyways im off now xxxxxxxxxx

Well i havent updated for a while but yeah soooooo monday went 2 the centre it was gd me n lauren kept trying 2 get cassie n david alone together hehehe it was fun lol alothough david is very scared of me now :P oooooops!! then on tuesday it was laurens bday n i gave her money n a johnny depp book which i think she liked so that was all gd... we went 2 the cinema n saw date movie it was soooooooo funny n we had an ice fight lol........ yesterday n 2day i aint done much lol but 2moro me n lauren are off on a venture 2 livi n cassie might come if she gets money for the bus......... anyhoo am off tooodles xxxxx

HEY!! well last nite cassie stayed over n we had a gd laugh n but i felt bad 4 bumpin lauren but she went 2 the cinema with ben awwwwwwwww lol!! then 2day me, cassie, alice, innes n cc all went in 2 edinburgh so i could get lauren a bday pressie. it was a great laugh but innes kept hurting me lol n it was freeeeeeeeeezing lol..... we ewnt in 2 flip n all picked the ugliest tops we could n tired them on but the thing was alice n cc really suited thier tops lol n cassie was wearin a big flowery shirt that no1 would look gd in... but i just looked like a reject lol but it was a laugh n innes was just sittin on the couch like "u r all weird" i thought it was sooooo funny!! when we went up 2 sound control there was this annoyin person who was well showin off with the amp turned up waaaaaaay 2 loud it was gay lol. after that we went up princes street then came home n cassie went bak 2 falkirk n i had a bath 2 warm me up lol:P!!
thats all for now toooooodles xxxxxxx

Well aint updated in a while 1nce again nowt interstin has happened 2 me so yeag fill in the quiz plz so i dont look like ive got no mates xxxx

» I committed suicide:
» I said I loved you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Self:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you do me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Have you ever hurt me?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Have you ever been mad at me?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] What song when you hear it, reminds you of me?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Guten Morgen!
ich habe nicht updated in ages lol! aint bn up 2 2 much...finished decorating ma room :D:D:D its kl *loves* hehe! i dunno what happpend but cassie n heather started talkin again then heather was talking 2 me so i was like wooooo cos i hate fallin out wiv ppl except steph murphy cos shes a cow lmao. yah anyways dont no what else ill be up 2 over the weekend :S but hey lol. ill be off now then..if u cant think of anythin interestin 2 say dont say anythin lol.... toodles xxxxx

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yo! well i havent bn on here in a while lol i can never really be arsed n no1 reads this anyway so there aint that much point but he it helps 2 write ur feelings down..... hmmmmmmm i aint bn up 2 much just having a laugh wiv my great mates soo nothing unusual lol.... o me cassie n lauren r going out 4 dinner 2moro go us lol we r posh hahaha 2 the kaim park lol then they r staying over so that should be funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! hehehe anyways im off now tooodles xxx

well i aint been up 2 much intersting.. ive finished all my xmas shopping just need 2 wraap now :D:D im kinda looking forward 2 xmas but it doesnt really feel that christmasy just now which im not sure is a good or bad thing :S

but yeah i got the whole mick thing sorted out n we r talkin again but i dont think itll ever be the same as it used 2 :( but meh i was hurtin was i supposed 2 say nothing? grrrr life sucks lol

ach well im very very tired n am off 2 bed soon

c ya xxxx

ooo well i aint been up 2 much interesting just doing homework n went 2 the centre last nite n me n cc had a fight with the biiig straws u get sherbet in (but we ate the sherebet 1st) then me n podge were playing peanuts n a big scary man came up n said "i think u should refrain thank u" it was hilarious lol... podge kept on beatin me but im gonna beat him b4 xmas ive decided that :D then i stole innes' gloves which stunk of hugo boss then my hands smelled 2-but in a nice way lol... so yeha thats bout it ooo jordan is a gay prostitute lmao... dont ask.